Have been a stellar employee for 18 years- positive reviews, awards etc. Since my return to work, (I came back early due to a critical situation) things have become very difficult. I loved my job. However, since there was some restructuring 5 years ago, we have never been fully staffed. When I was not on the post cancer meds, I just worked long hours to get things done. Unfortunately, the tamoxifen makes me ill and exhausted. I can do 8 hours - just not 12. They have taken away an excellent staff member and left us in a mess. They refused to help me with a large scale fundraiser where I am on my feed from 7am-midnight. What do I do? need to work but now feel its toxic. So disappointed- feel like they are ruining my life- I need 4 more years before I can retire- help! Please only post if this is confidential.